tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-70203651032453346852024-02-18T22:01:24.147-08:00The HassellsThe HassellsSabrina Rabehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15248052072969423345noreply@blogger.comBlogger5125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7020365103245334685.post-28867089238007974362013-11-24T10:12:00.001-08:002013-11-24T10:12:07.545-08:00Today I Feel<div style="text-align: center;">
It's crazy to think where time and feelings and thoughts have brought me.</div>
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The last post i wrote about was how grateful I am for Talor. </div>
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I still am grateful for him and all he has taught me. </div>
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Now today is a different story. </div>
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I am now writing about divorce and sadness but also a happiness.</div>
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I will be honest with myself.</div>
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I knew the day before I married him I would face real challenges.</div>
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I wanted to lie to myself and say everything was going to be okay but I knew in my heart,</div>
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that there would be trials harder than what I thought i could ever imagine. </div>
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I am not writing this to make Talor out to be a bad person or husband. </div>
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That is not my intentions whatsoever.</div>
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We had amazing moments and fun times that i will always cherish.</div>
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Always.</div>
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I always knew there was a piece of me missing in our marriage.</div>
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I felt as if I couldn't be myself and be happy. </div>
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I was trying to be someone i wasn't. </div>
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I was feeling as if i was put into a room full of smog trying to breathe.</div>
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I finally said i couldn't do it anymore and made the hardest decision of my life. </div>
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He was confused to why all the sudden I wanted out.</div>
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Trying to explain only brought more frustration.</div>
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I just wasn't happy.</div>
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I had been really contemplating the idea of divorce for a long time until finally i broke.</div>
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Enough is enough. </div>
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I struggled to make the decision but i knew it was the only thing that would help me become the </div>
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person i knew i once was. </div>
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That fun, outgoing, spunky girl that lit up the room when she walked in.</div>
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I prayed so hard to make sure this was the right thing.</div>
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Now let me get this straight.</div>
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Heavenly Father never said "Sabrina you need to divorce Talor."</div>
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I told him I want to be happy.</div>
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He wants me happy.</div>
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I doubted myself many times but like i said earlier i wasn't going to lie to myself.</div>
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I knew this is what needed to be done for me to be truly happy.</div>
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Once i made my decision, i felt so at peace like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders.</div>
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Does that mean i am happy now? </div>
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No. Not even close.</div>
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I shared moments with Talor that are raw and real. </div>
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But i know we will both be happier.</div>
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I want the very best for him.</div>
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I want him to learn and grow to become the husband that his future</div>
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wife is searching for.</div>
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My heart is heavy as I write that.</div>
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I feel a sense of guilt as a wife that maybe didn't meet all of his needs as well.</div>
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I have learned through all this that Heavenly Father is so alive </div>
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and is right by your side if you allow him.</div>
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I have gained such a strong testimony though this trial that it brings tears to my eyes.</div>
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He wants the very best for all of us. </div>
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He loves us.</div>
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I gained my testimony through something so hard and difficult but to know Heavenly Father has a plan for me and knows my needs, </div>
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I am ever grateful to him.</div>
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I can feel his warmth around me.</div>
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I can feel him guiding me.</div>
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"Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not yet the end." </div>
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Sabrina Rabehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15248052072969423345noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7020365103245334685.post-1387717721803490202011-03-08T14:45:00.000-08:002011-03-08T15:00:05.774-08:00talor clark<div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiV7VqEFVm5d3ALQqgn9FvbW2SlBeO1DiOZs_GSpVtLKUX_j1bO13c-genCAszasXr1htD95PRvueLNfwTIEDUaZt7zFMF8E4IwkaozjD1saCIHbP80w5sYTjb3p1bRILSiZ-Ulfzn2Ia9U/s1600/0048.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="213" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiV7VqEFVm5d3ALQqgn9FvbW2SlBeO1DiOZs_GSpVtLKUX_j1bO13c-genCAszasXr1htD95PRvueLNfwTIEDUaZt7zFMF8E4IwkaozjD1saCIHbP80w5sYTjb3p1bRILSiZ-Ulfzn2Ia9U/s320/0048.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><span style="font-size: large;">i just want to show my appreciation for my husband. </span></div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: large;">he has stood by my side since we met.</span></div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: large;">he does so much for me.</span></div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: large;">i find myself feeling ungrateful at times for all his hard work.</span></div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: large;">i am so blessed that he works and goes to school to support us.</span></div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: large;">i know there is not much i can do for him except love and support him in all his decisions.</span></div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: large;">he is so strong. </span></div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: large;">he has the motivation to do anything he puts his mind to.</span></div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: large;">if talor was not apart of my life, i would be lost.</span></div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: large;">he is such a great example to me.</span></div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: large;">his testimony is so strong and he is so strong in the church.</span></div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: large;">all talor has to give is love and humilty. </span></div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: large;">i love that i know that talor and Heavenly Father are so close.</span></div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: large;"> he is such a sweet spirit.</span></div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: large;">i feel so loved.</span></div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: large;">he is my rock.</span></div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: large;">i know that he is working extremely hard for his family and he knows it is all going to pay off.</span></div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: large;">i know i dont show him love and compassion as much as i need to.</span></div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: large;">i just want him to know how much i love him and how happy and blessed i am to have him in my life.</span></div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: large;">i love you talor clark hassell.</span></div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: large;">im so glad we are going to be together for eternity.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">:)</span></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div>Sabrina Rabehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15248052072969423345noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7020365103245334685.post-52031867283719032112011-02-14T13:52:00.000-08:002011-02-14T13:52:18.256-08:00feelings<div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">its Valentine's Day.</div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"> while talor is at work, im at home with a cold. </div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">i wish this day didn't exist to be honest. </div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">everyone pronounces their love for one another and it seems that today is the only day love is supported. </div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">not for me. </div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">i wish to show my love 24/7 and not just on the 14th of February. </div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">this is just an excuse to buy great gifts and eat chocolate out of a heart shaped cardboard box. </div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">not complaining about the gifts or chocolate. </div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">Anyways, this month just seems like its not going anywhere.</div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">i feel like my days are the same old routine. </div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">talor wakes up at 4:30, goes to the gym, comes homes gets ready for work, kisses me goodbye and is gone for the day.</div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">im tired of being alone. </div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">i know its selfish of me to think and say but i am.</div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">school and work drowns life.</div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">im sure this is the way for most people.</div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">i wish money didnt exist.</div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">i wish knowledge was easy.</div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">i think i just need to make this year one to remember.</div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">in the summer,</div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">talor and i have decided to move to Denver to sell pest control.</div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">who knows if it will even happen.</div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">i need a change.</div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">i need life and i want to see the beauty in all things.</div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">i feel like i take things for half of what they really are.</div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">i need to be on my own and devote my time to more serious things.</div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">having my first miscarriage really opened my eyes to life around me.</div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">i know everything happens for a reason and i am so thankful for that.</div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">trials make you stronger.</div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">of course it is still hard to see the people i care about pregnant or having their baby.</div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">do i feel spite or anger? </div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">or am i happy and loving for them to begin their journey as a mother and family?</div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">i am not angry.</div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">it takes time to heal and thats what im trying to do. </div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">i think it will be a good change for us to move away just so we can start new.</div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">i want to become a better wife and person for talor. </div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">he deserves so much and i feel like starting fresh is going to help me find who i really am.</div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">i guess im not making sense of this but i know God has a plan for each and every one of us.</div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">back to valentines day.</div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">talor surprised me with an old vintage piano.</div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">i have no idea how to play it but its very cute.</div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">i want to learn because music in the home is the easiest way to bring the spirit in.</div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">i want my children to become musically involved.</div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">music is a true talent and we are to share it with others.</div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">i am spending all my free time trying to understand the keys and notes.</div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">just messing around but im learning to read notes and make songs.</div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">i love learning.</div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">as for talors gift,</div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">he is a Major watch freak.</div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">i bought him a 51-30 nixon watch.</div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">he loves it!</div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">which makes me sooo happy because i was nervous to give it to him.</div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">anyways we are both happy and the world goes round!</div><div style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;">i think im done. :) </div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">xoxo</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div>Sabrina Rabehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15248052072969423345noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7020365103245334685.post-26859974245359499462011-02-04T11:29:00.000-08:002011-02-04T11:29:19.339-08:00the babe<div style="text-align: center;"> <span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">this week was hard. </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">it all started around 2:30 p.m. on feb. 2.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">i woke up from a nap and had to go to the bathroom like normal.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">i saw what i never wanted to see.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">blood. </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">i called for my mom because i was at her house and she ran into the bathroom.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">i showed her and asked if this was normal.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">she said she was unsure but to call the doctor.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">my sister came into the living room where i was crying and told me it didnt mean that i was having a miscarriage but that maybe the baby is just implanting itself a little late.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">i was still worried. </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span 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really could have been.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">that night, the cramps began to grow stronger and stronger.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">i woke up with a burning sensation and the worst cramps that i have ever experienced.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">talor told me earlier that day that he read online, if your cramps are unbearable it could be a miscarriage.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">i woke up at 12:34 with the pain so strong.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">i thought maybe if i go pee it will relieve some pressure.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">that moment was the worst moment a woman can go through.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">this being my first baby i was already so attached.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">not trying to gross anyone out but as i was peeing the entire sac fell into the toilet.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">i was devastated. talor was asleep and as i was crying for his name,</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">he woke up and comforted me. </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">i was a mess.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">the next morning i went to the doctor for blood work.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">the doctor checked my cervix and made sure i was doing alright.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">she sent me to get and ultra sound just to make sure everything was ok.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">most uncomfortable thing i have ever had to go through.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">today, the doctor called and told me i was A+ for my blood type and that my pregnancy hormones were at 270 which is really high.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">they scheduled me for another appointment just to make sure my levels go down.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">she told me to NOT get pregnant in these next two weeks because my levels are so high.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">whatever that means...</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">anyways,</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">talor has been so supportive and has been able to keep my mind off of this.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">he took me to the mall to walk around and went to lunch with me and a girlfriend.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">i couldnt have asked for a better companion. </span><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"> </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"> he has stayed so strong.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">i really look up to him as a husband and father.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"> </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">i know this was meant to happen for a reason.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">the baby was not healthy and Heavenly Father knew this.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">i know i will get to raise my children when the time is right.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">this has made me a stronger wife and future mother.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">as for now,</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">i will continue to live my life as i was before.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">i want the best for my children and Heavenly Father knows whats best for me and my family.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">i trust in Him.</span></div>Sabrina Rabehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15248052072969423345noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7020365103245334685.post-48127836082115427962011-01-24T20:54:00.000-08:002011-01-24T20:56:41.395-08:00<div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">my first post.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">i figure that i better start sometime because my life is so interesting. </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">i have to thank rissa for making me do this. i was intimidated by bloggers because some people are pro at this. so dont judge. </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">i guess ill begin this by saying i love my life. of course i have my ups and downs but who doesnt? i have days where i feel like the world is in my hands and i can do anything and days where i feel like the weight of the world in on my shoulders. </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">so many great things have happened in the last year. </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">on april 15th i became one with my eternal companion. talor clark hassell. </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">of course i was told that life was about to get crazy and hard but i didnt believe it.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">i thought marriage was a fairytale.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">and it is. </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">marriage takes work and its what you put into it that your going to get out of it. </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">talor and i just had our second christmas together but our first as an old married couple. </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">it was great.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">spent lots of money on each other but it was well worth it. :)</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">talor and i just had our 9 month on jan. 15th. </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">that was also the day our lives would change forever. </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">who knew a little white stick that said yes + or no - could make you the happiest person in the world?</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">the longest three minutes of our lives were in the hands of the pee stick.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">the blinking timer kept blinking and blinking and blinking. </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">ta da! the test came back postive! we were soooo excited! (still are)</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">we had been trying since we got married to have a bundle of joy in our arms. </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">of course talor wants a boy and i want a girl but no matter the outcome, we will both be so happy and blessed. </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">im only a couple weeks so its still new and my body is going through many changes. </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">my boobs have never hurt this bad in my whole life. haha</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">its just the best feeling i have ever had knowing i am the home for this baby for the next 9 months. its really crazy to think about.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">well besides being pregnant, we live the lives of any other newlyweds. our days consist of school, work, homework, dinner, (if we even eat) and then bed (by 9:00 P.M.). </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">talor is going to school for physical therapy and he is a hard worker at unicon. </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">he is a brain freak. i cant be motivated to go to school even if i tried. </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">im so thankful for him and all that he does for our little family.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">while he is at school, i do hair and eyelash extensions. keeps me busy. and i love doing it. :)</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">i think its time for me to rest my head and dream till there are no dreams left.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">goodnight.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">xo.xo.xo. </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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